*BackupPanic

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Basinful Basinful

I felt her fingers upon me,
stirring and braiding
down my back;
all her proclivities platted out.

Self-effacing and labial;
many a time now she's bent down
and bit at my ear,
those lips of hers aching to be blown aside.

And whilst she tangled me another brunet river
well into the eventide,
still I was awoken far too quickly;
unwithstood till she wills herself dreamt.Basinful by *BackupPanic

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Hummingbirds And Honeyeaters Hummingbirds And Honeyeaters

I chased you through the bloodwoods
And caught you in the sweet-breath-of-spring
Couldn't help but notice your goose flesh
Spied and felt it as I passed over you with my trouble light
Goddess-ship raw in the catbird seat
Put away as much of your branch water as I could swing
Whilst you bore down upon me all cold-eyed
Akin to a pulley bone was your flesh in the night
I fell with my trip cord about your waistHummingbirds And Honeyeaters by *BackupPanic

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Saltgrass by *BackupPanic

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Medicine Chest by *BackupPanic

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Sun Drawing Water Sun Drawing Water

Many a time bit by the underwood now
Thorn and spine ne'er too high to miss me
Another dog's age till sun drew water
Bade me toward that dusky strand again
Mottled length of sky ne'er not ours
Ruinously where you have always been

Still and all, she's manacled there
Out amongst the spaces in betweenSun Drawing Water by *BackupPanic

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Rumination Rumination

I know what I am,
it's just different to all you know.

I'm only this 'cause I have to be.

Never for myself.

Why would I ever do such a thing,
how goddamn selfish would that make me?

All this makes my chest ache . . .
a pang's slowly ebbing and flowing within me;
I don't know how to fix this.

Spirits low and pooled now,
no coming deliverance in sight.

I don't want it . . . I won't let it go.

Needed still and I just can't get a handle on all this.

Shuteye's probably another pipe dream and that's fine by me;
might just ruin myself for a while and wait the silence out.Rumination by *BackupPanic

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Bog Orchid by *BackupPanic

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Quayside Quayside

Even more yourself, I see;
Hamstrung, lonesome and all.

Withal, here's to a bit of cold comfort.Quayside by *BackupPanic

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Prison-House Of A Girl's Scent by *BackupPanic

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Baby-Farmin' by *BackupPanic

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I wish I was Special Hands on my body like sandpaper
My hands on your body like silk

I don't know who seduced who but we both came willingly.
with words of angels and tears dancing around us like black butterflies.
I fell years ago and it would seem you've been here for longer.

I wish I was what you thought I was and, though I know I will never be, you took me there for tonight.

Fine lines and scars.  Pain and truth.  Torment and Temptation.
Silently screaming.

I never earned this but I'll take what I can get,
   if only for tonight,
      if only it'll make us happy.I wish I was Special by *EatingMyOwnFears

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dreams by ~shroomsastional

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cloeres-pheriz by ~shroomsastional

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orbs and curves by ~shroomsastional

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scatter face by ~shroomsastional

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THAT by ~shroomsastional

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young by ~shroomsastional

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`lintu47 1 day ago Hobbyist General Artist

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=dreamsinstatic May 14, 2012 Professional Writer

Thanks for the

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~MauroMunir May 14, 2012 New member Hobbyist Writer

I hear a voice when I read all your poems. And its a pretty darn good voice man. Keep it up. Your on a whole 'nother level. xD

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*FuzzyHoser May 14, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Thank ya for the favourite.

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~Tsukiiyo May 11, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

I love your gallery.
I invite you to join my group [link] to share all this with the rest of the deviants!

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~Shadow-StrikeRaven May 11, 2012 New member

Those poems are great!

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*EatingMyOwnFears May 10, 2012

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"she was eatin' tootie fruities when her head exploded,
blood and brains and milk and rainbow painted the walls..."

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~MauroMunir May 6, 2012 New member Hobbyist Writer

Thanks for the watch. I shall now visit your gallery!

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*swansisters May 6, 2012 Professional Writer

You're welcome.

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~Vrithean May 3, 2012 New member Professional Traditional Artist

Oh yes, and thank you for all your love as well!

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destitutus ventis, remos adhibe :: if the wind will not serve, take to the oars

þá blóstman híe selfe beclýsaþ, and eft híe híe selfe geopeniaþ :: the flowers close themselves, and again open themselves up

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*monsieurwar May 3, 2012 Professional Writer

Welcome in the Fortress!

Please take the time to visit our gallery and submission folders

We have monthly/bi-monthly prompts too; don't hesitate to participate!

The admin team,

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~Vrithean Apr 30, 2012 New member Professional Traditional Artist

Hello, sir. It's always a pleasure to read your words, though it's been quite a long while since the last time.
It's Kelsi (Vixenpolymorph).
Hope things have been well!

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destitutus ventis, remos adhibe :: if the wind will not serve, take to the oars

þá blóstman híe selfe beclýsaþ, and eft híe híe selfe geopeniaþ :: the flowers close themselves, and again open themselves up

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=dreamsinstatic Apr 17, 2012 Professional Writer

Thanks for the

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~artistic-foolishness Apr 15, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

you have been tagged.

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~Dade-Valucian Apr 8, 2012 New member Hobbyist Writer

Thank you for the favs, and for watching hope you enjoy the work to come!

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~4Js Apr 6, 2012

I used your and nick's words plus my own and arranged them into something else: [link] It's for one of my stories but I like how the 'song' turned out

Hope you enjoy

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~Nabium Apr 6, 2012

wonderful poetry you have here. I'll be back to read some more!

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*cardinal-hearts Apr 3, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I love your poetry. It's so raw and deep. I could read all day if I had the time.

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=Winding-Silence Mar 25, 2012

Cheers man - take care

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*Scarlettletters Mar 15, 2012 Writer

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Carl Jung

Wordsmiths new website: [link]
My site: [link]

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*TatteredaretheTorn Mar 13, 2012

oh yes,
and thank you again for the watch!
woo hoo!

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Paint It Black Janet Fitch

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*TatteredaretheTorn Mar 13, 2012

hello,
thank you kindly for the recent faves

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~4Js Mar 12, 2012

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It's just a bunch of stories. Accept, of course, when it's more

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~4Js Mar 12, 2012

hey babe, if I sent you the next installment would you do that thing you do so well?

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